Tuesday, November 20, 2007

So I'm back. Somewhat sporadically but here again.
I've been starting work recently at a school called Giant Steps, a school for autistic children. It's been quite the experience working with such a wide spectrum of kids, from ones that are kind of spacey and show a lot of behaviors, flinging their hands around and squealing in ear-shattering pitches, to those who are almost what you call normal until examined closely. It's made me wonder what goes on in these kids' minds, when some of them are so scrambled that they can't learn to write or toss a ball. Sometimes you can tell they're trying to please you and really want to perform well and it's adorable, but they're just so unable because some connections somewhere in their brains are not connected the right way. Some of them though, are just off in space and unable to focus on anything. My friend Noah says that these are the kids who are planning to take over the world. I laughed.
Today, I was teaching little blond Charlie to write his name. "This is boring," he says to me, "I'm going to blow up the school." And then returned to his r's. You were right bro, sorry I doubted you.
And then there are times where I'm walking around in a figure eight flapping my arms and pretending to be a duck with 4 kids following right behind me, and I really wonder what I'm doing...

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Here are the remainder of my pictures from California. For a complete set, go visit my album of Facebook - I've posted them all there. I cannot believe that two weeks ago, I was sitting on a beach in California. It seems surreal now, how relaxed I was, how much time I had. Now, not even two weeks into the semester, I'm running around again, like a maniac, trying to get everything done at once.


The cliffs of La Jolla. In some guidebook they described these cliffs as one of North America's great wonders or something but they aren't. They're very beautiful, granted, but not a natural wonder. In my opinion. Who knows, maybe I'm missing out on something.



Mexican Cafe in Old Town where I had lunch one day. The Mexican food was amazing, given that the place was a short 15 minute drive away from the Mexican border and the Cafe was located a few blocks away from the trolley station that provides transportation into and out of Tijuana every day. The tacos were real, 100%. I never knew I was eating fake until I have the real stuff and now, I can't eat Mexican food in Canada anymore. It just doesn't do justice.


At a port in Coronado. My friend had to take a picture of me with the big boat. Aircraft carrier or something. He was a guy, he knew what it was. I had no idea, I just stood there and smiled at the camera.


Us having fun at Coronado, San Diego skyline in the background. It was a beautiful day, as always.

On the beautiful Coronado beach with gold-speckled sand. Coronado, next to La Jolla, was the most touristy beach around. I like this picture because it wasn't taken very well and we were all unaware that the picture was being taken at all. It captures us on the beach in California that day.


My last breakfast on Pacific Beach before I went to the airport later that morning. The place was called Jordan and served very good eggs benedict. We sat and watched the joggers with their dogs go by, and the bikers in groups of two or three, or the surfer dudes with the tousled hair and the average Joe people who just enjoyed walking along the beach on a Sunday morning. I remember sitting at the table, just drinking in the sights and smells and feeling and wishing that I could stay.



It's been a long summer. Quite eventful. I started in Calgary visiting old friends and spending time with people I hadn't seen in years. I continued to Edmonton to do an internship at the Royal Alexandra hospital, meeting new friends at South Edmonton Alliance Church and getting a feel for a small Albertan city. Wandered the streets of New York, tasting all the delights that New York had to offer and had a few eye-opening experiences. Finished in California, finding rest on the sunny beaches and good conversations with an old mentor.
I wish I could say that the summer was perfect. It wasn't. Many things went wrong. There is nothing like traveling alone that makes you realize your own inadequacies. I realized all of mine and more. I started off the summer confident in myself, feeling like I could conquer the world and completed the summer humbled and a little bit wiser, but unfortunately also a little more jaded. I learned more than I could ever describe in this blog and I'm so thankful I had the opportunity to travel for the past three months. If I may, I'm going to leave a few of my "lessons learned" for you guys.
1) Take risks. Usually, it's worth it - the reward outweighs the risk and the fun outweighs both. Life is for living, not for sitting and twiddling thumbs.
2) Acts of friendship and hospitality are the greatest gifts you can give someone. Having been received warmly by both old friends and strangers and feeling welcome in every city I visited, I can say that I am indescribably grateful to everyone I passed along the way.
3) Always wear sunscreen. No kidding. My back is three different colors of burnt to prove it.

Thus concludes my summer blogging. As the semester rolls on, I will blog seldom, if ever. See you again in November or December...

Thursday, August 30, 2007

More pictures of beautiful, sunny California.
I love how it's always sunshiney here. How it's always hot but at a perfect temperature when the ocean breeze comes through. I love how palm trees just grow on the side of the road and the houses that sit on the mesas look like they've been weathered to become part of the cliffs.

Visit to Old Town, San Diego. Huge Mexican influence there. Lots of Spanish on the streets, Mexican-influenced architecture, Mexican cafes on every block. The tacos were amazing. After this, I can't go back to Three Amigos or Carlos and Pepes...Now I know what real Mexican is like.


Did some wandering amidst the street vendors and old-style shops that lined the streets. Fascinating things - I wish I could take it all home with me.




My friends took me to a driving range. I learned to golf for the first time and found out it took a lot more precision and positioning than I first thought. Very much fun though - I can understand why people enjoy it very much. As the sun set and the sky turned dark purple, it got easier to spot my balls as they flew out to midfield.


I had to take a picture of the mustang convertible that we zipped around in. I love this car. I love the grey sleekness of it and how the wind hits my face as we fly down the freeways.


Pelicans. Funny-looking things they are.

Inside a cave at La Jolla.


Sea anemones. Cute, interesting little things. I sat on the sea-carved rocks all day that day and watched as the anemones closed up when the tiny sand crabs scuttled over them. Listened to the waves crashing onto the rocks, saw the long, deep green seaweed breathe in and out with the tide, felt the salty sea breeze. Sat there and watched the sparkling ocean disappear into the horizon.
And of course, while I was at it I evened out my tan.





Got just a little wet splashing around in the waves.


If I had a choice, I'd stay here. For a long time...or at least until I had the luxury of calling all these things "normal".

Monday, August 27, 2007

I found out where I'll be living once I move out.
People say California is great - they never say it's this idyllic. Cruising down the No. 8 freeway last night in a convertible with the top down, the wind in my face, the radio cranked up, the sun setting just over the palm trees turning the sky pink and orange, the sandy adobe mexican-style houses lining the hills, I realized that this is where, if at all possible, I'd like to end up.


Pacific Beach, the "college beach". Not so busy today. It was sunny and hot but the cool ocean breeze kept the temperature perfect. The deep blue ocean just stretches out into the horizon.


We went to Tijuana, Mexico last night. We didn't spend that much time there - just walked down the Strip, had a few drinks, wandered through the quiet streets and then crossed back over the border. TJ is only a half hour drive from San Diego but exists a world apart. There's a dangerous edge about the place. Taxi drivers that hound you for a few dollars. Fights that break out on the streets. If you don't keep an eye on your drink you don't know what will end up in it. However it did have some exotic charm to it and the tequila was something to remember.


Good old Archstone. This is where I'm staying with my friend. Outdoor walkways that enter into luxurious apartments, heated pool and hot tub, palm trees that arch through skylights in corridors.


Fashion Valley Mall. It's beautiful - an outdoor mall. It's like a regular mall, just without a roof. The food court is on the second level in the open air and the Mexican architecture of mundane stores like Macy's or JCPenny gives everything a certain flair.

Trying to do cartwheels on the beach.
Woops.

Woops.

Yay!

Mmm....this is definitely the way to end my summer. I could not have done better. Except maybe Fiji...

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Some final pictures of New York City. One week was not enough to see everything I wanted to see but at the same time, Manhattan was overwhelming and noisy and crowded and I can say I'm a bit relieved to be out of a big city. Not that I'm not in a big city now - San Diego's pretty big - but it's a way different feel. Everything's a little more relaxed here. The smoggy Manhattan air too was not one of my favorite things about the city. I did, however, have quite a few adventures.


Going apartment shopping with my friend Tim one day, I realized how expensive living in Manhattan really was. Places we saw like the one pictured above, a small 1 1/2 that was visibly layered over with multiple coats of paint still cost circa $1700/month. No air conditioning, countertop and mini-fridge along the wall at the other side of the main room and bathroom so small that if you sat on the toilet you could still wash your hands at the sink. Needless to say, I was appalled and vowed never to call anything in Montreal "expensive" again. Compared to this, the 4 1/2 I had last summer for $1300 was deluxe.



I love ferryboats. The feeling of motion, the wind running through my hair, the sights, the smells. I could have taken that ferry back and forth from Staten Island for the entire day.


My (hopefully) future school, although I still maintain that I'd love to go to school in California. Advantage of schooling in NYC: networking. Lots and lots of connections. According to a very successful Wall Street broker I know, today's world is not about Ivy League education, it's about connections. T/F?




Shopping in Chinatown. Dirty, crowded, the briney smell of fish and crab wafting up from every tank and bucket placed on the street to sell. Old men still spitting on the street like they do in China so you need to watch your step. Little puddles of questionable murky water streetside. Food was pretty good but Manhattan's Chinatown is not the greatest Chinatown I've been to.


A hint of tropical paradise by Rockfeller center. The conglomeration of tourists and the trendy side boutiques gave this place a very festive atmosphere. Beware of walking into other people's photos.


Trump tower. 'Nuff said.
I wonder how logical it is to put trees halfway up a building. The green goes very well with the Gucci ad in red though. However strange, New York is unfailingly fashionable.


Coney Island. I took the Wonder Wheel - the huge ferris wheel in the amusement park - all the way to the top. Although the sticky humidity was very bad that day, nothing can go wrong when I'm on a ferris wheel. Along with ferryboats, it's another favorite of mine. When I went down, the boardwalk and beach were relatively empty because it was getting late, the sun was setting and all the tourist families were headed back to the City. Plenty of locals were around though, hanging out on the boardwalk and fishing on the pier. It would have been very beautiful if the rotting smell of fish guts on the pier didn't make my stomach turn. Needless to say, I retreated fairly quickly back to the boardwalk and then since it was getting dark, the D train back to Manhattan.
Sadly, I have yet to comment on the Manhattan night life since I've still got 3 months till I'm 21, the legal age in the States.


I just landed at the San Diego Airport a few hours ago. It was a really rough night. I vowed never again to fly earlier than 10AM. My flight was at 6:35AM this morning. The waiting around the airports and flying when exhausted was definitely not very fun. Got very little and sporadic sleep. Pikka (an old friend and mentor of mine) is sleeping. I think she may have the right idea.
More updates to follow.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Having fun in New York!


Spent half a day at the Cloisters, an awakening to all my little girl fairy tale fantasies of Medieval castles and chasing unicorns. The weathered stones of the old chapels ground you and give you a deep sense of peace in your heart.



Subway stations here make Guy Concordia metro look cushy. Very, very sketchy.

Bunches of fenced off lush green spaces - private parks. Small little oases in an urban jungle.



One of the many colorful murals in East Village.

New York reminds me a bit of Montreal. After having spent the last 2 months in the small cities of Alberta where the one mall downtown doesn't open past 5 pm and Starbucks downtown closes at 4 pm, where free public wireless doesn't exist and nothing is really within walking distance, New York is a haven. With the 24-hour restaurants and the wireless internet access in every cafe, the extensive subway system and people outside at all hours of the day, this place is what I've been missing all summer. I never thought of myself as a big city girl but maybe I miss the amenities that a big city offers. Even growing up going to backcountry ranches and the outcountry mountains, I wonder if maybe I'm just a city girl at heart.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Sitting in my room in Edmonton, waiting for my friend James to come pick me up and drive me to the Greyhound station.
Soon I'll be sitting on the bus, watching the Alberta landscape whirr by as I travel back to Calgary.
Sometimes it seems that that's what life does. You sit and watch and it just whirrs by as you press your nose against the glass and leave patches of cloudy vapour. Soon the greens and yellows and oranges and blues kind of blur together until nothing is really distinguishable. It seems like the past six weeks went by in a blur. Six weeks of long bus rides and cups of coffee and long rounds and wound evaluations and cognitive assessments and wheelchair adjustments, of walking down Whyte Ave. and shopping at West Edmonton Mall and hanging out with friends and eating out and playing volleyball...
After working in hospitals where death is not uncommon and having two of my childhood friends pass away over the past year the question always comes up of whether we're just living and living and living until we die. Do we just see just see life whirr by through a window? What does it mean to "live a full life"? That's always the phrase that's tossed around, isn't it? If C.S. Lewis is right, and all men are immortal, then there must be more to it than just living. If we believe there is an eternity, we must act accordingly.





Saturday, August 11, 2007

I'm tempted to write a semi-end of summer post since it seems like summer is quickly drawing to a close but let's not get too hasty. There is still three weeks of glorious vacation. Or time spent away from school anyway.
I had to go to work today. Which would have been very upsetting if I hadn't met the greatest guy today at the hospital. He has this twinkle to his eye, even when he's sitting still, which speaks volumes about a mischievous personality. He's never allowed to cause mischief of course - hospitals are very serious places - but I can imagine the type of trouble he would get into given the chance. Most of the time, he's slow to speak but only because he's formulating the type of idea and phrase that will leave you amazed and a little caught off guard. He moves with real dignity even though he has a slouch to his shoulders that seem almost casual. His ankle gets swollen sometimes from poor circulation so I wrapped it for him today and the warmth of his thanks made me feel like a little bit of sunshine had broken through the rainy clouds outside. He has deep laugh lines on his face and few of those wrinkles that represent a frown.
He loves cookies but he has a lot of trouble with them because he's missing more than a few teeth. I like the color of his hair: a clear, snowy white. His grandchildren come visit sometimes and they've got the same blue-green eyes that he does. He astonishes me with his age; he's turning 100 years old next week.

Saturday, August 4, 2007

What do you do when you know you can't prevent a horrible mistake?
Mr. P has a sore on his heel. Sores often develop on bony prominences like over the calcaneus bone of the heel, the lateral malleolus of the ankle, the sacral and coccygeal prominences on the lower back...because of pressure. Capillaries are tiny blood vessels that supply nutrients and oxygen to muscles and nerves. These vessels can be occluded by a pressure greater that 32 mmHg and if that pressure is constant, muscles and nerves necrose (die) from lack of oxygen and nutrients. In healthy people, this is prevented by weight shifting, mobility and our intact sensation that tells us when we need to stand (like over a long car ride). In the sick and elderly, all this is impaired, resulting in cell death in parts of the body where circulation is cut off.
Pressure can be relieved in other ways, like with frequent repositioning done by the nurses and pressure relief surfaces such as air mattresses, gel cushions and medical grade sheepskin.
Mr. P is also a diabetic, which indicates poor circulation at baseline.
Mr. P is not allowing us to treat the necrosing flesh on his heel. If not treated and if the sore opens up further and is infected, he could require a below-knee amputation.
As health care professionals, we are bound by the hippocratic oath to always do good and never do harm. We are also bound by a stipulation of practice that the patient must agree to all treatment and we must practice with a client-centred approach. We cannot force him to accept treatment, can we? Is the decision really his? It's hard to convince this man, fifty years my senior, that I can treat his rotting foot.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

There is a rhyme that is hung over the sink at work. It's quite poetic and has been stuck in my head all week. It goes like this:

I wish I were a glow worm
A glow worm's never glum
'Cause how can you be grumpy
When the sun shines out your bum

I wonder which mad doctor or nurse put it there...

Monday, July 23, 2007

You can't always believe what you hear.
I've heard from numerous sources that Edmonton is a boring, quiet, little city in Northern Alberta with nothing much to do and nothing much going on.
My response?
Far from the truth.
I'm starting to learn about Edmonton and everything I learn brings me farther and farther away from that truth. First of all, no one in Montreal, the supposedly "sinful city", has ever asked me to smoke weed with them. Well no, there was that one time on St. Catherine's Street East...but that's a bad neighborhood. And the guy offered to sell me weed, not share a joint with me. This occurrence, in Edmonton, happened in a quiet suburb close to the University of Alberta.
I had to get that out of the way first.
Now, on to other things. Besides having drunkards in the suburbs yelling at 2 am. and this being supposedly the "Murder Capital of Canada" and there having just been a fire involving a whole new suburban development and guys throwing burning sofa cushions into hallways of apartment buildings...it's a fairly nice little city.
West Edmonton Mall is a whole mecca of things unimaginable. Everything one needs is in that mall. Lodging, food, entertainment, shopping...oh the shopping. The sales have persuaded me to buy a large number of quite useful articles like shoes and shirts and more shirts and some shoes...and a bag...I've seen the sea lion show and the flamingos preening and had a lovely White Peach Bellini at Moxie's. I even hear there's a penguin on the premises although that may be just a rumor.
The tastes of Edmonton festival is still going on where almost forty restaurants from all over Edmonton set up tents in a downtown square and sell small samples of food. The point I guess is to be able to sample food from all these different restaurants without having to actually visit the places for dinner. My #1 favorite dish would have been the Stuffed Mushrooms with 3 Cheeses and Tarragon Sauce from The Gas Pump. #2: Butternut Squash and Maple Soup from Mayfield Inn and Suites. It was buttery and creamy and wonderful. There were other things. Scones with whipped cream and berry sauce with strawberries, lobster and shrimp rotini, frozen chocolate dipped banana, cheese empanadas, jambalayas, tandoori chicken, bacon wrapped scallops, the list goes on and on.
I could talk about the Capital Ex festival and Whyte Ave. and the Muttart Conservatory but for now, this is enough blogging.

Change of travel plans:
Greyhound from Edmonton on August 18th to Calgary.
Catch flight out of Calgary International Airport on 20th to La Guardia International Airport, New York City.
Flight from Newark Liberty Airport, New Jersey on August 26th to San Diego International Airport via stopover in Charlotte, North Carolina.
Flight from San Diego International Airport on September 2nd to Pierre Elliot Trudeau International Airport, Montreal via stopover in Washington DC.

I can't wait to catch some beach time during my week in California.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007



You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now

James: my "twin"! We always celebrated birthdays together. And played with Lego! I know you don't remember the Mickey Mouse cake we had one year when I was 4 years old and you were 2 but that's the one I remember the most. I bought your mom a pretty "feel better card".
Nathan, you'd throw erasers at me in Sunday School but you were never as mean or as childish as the others. You've got quite a fan club on Facebook going.
Like it says in the song, in Christ, there is no end.
I'll see you guys again someday...but also praying that there'll be no erasers in heaven.


Monday, July 16, 2007

Sometimes, it's hard to tell what people are thinking.
Such is the case on Unit 41 where I work periodically where people have sustained TBIs (Traumatic Brain Injuries). Because the brain is the main control center for the rest of the body, differential damage to the brain will have varied effects. Some people lose their ability to coordinate movements, some to recognize colors and shapes, some to understand speech. My scariest (and most interesting I guess) patients are those who have sustained damage to the frontal lobe of the brain. The frontal lobe is the area that houses your "personality" if you will. Those who have compromised frontal lobes can still function perfectly fine in a very practical sense but will be overly aggressive, or disinhibited, or will burst into tears at the slightest emotion, or be completely blank. They may crack inappropriate jokes or be completely rude when they were the sweetest, most reserved people before the accident.
Mrs. S scared me today. I was walking down the empty hallway when she popped out of the door of her room and tried to grab my arm. It was the look on her face, and maybe that glint in her eye, that made me quite uneasy so I pulled away and started walking toward the nursing station, hoping that someone would be around. She followed me and as I sped up, so did she until I was speed-walking and she was jogging after me down this eerie empty hall. I was afraid she was going to run faster and hit me and I heard her grunting noises behind me and to the left (because she didn't talk) as she came after me. Needless to say, I was gasping with relief when our security guard appeared and came around to grab her.
And now, even when I'm downtown, I jump every time someone comes too close to me.
I really need to ask for a panic button.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

I saw something completely ridiculous today.
A man, sitting outside the hospital doors with nose prongs on (that's the little clear oxygen tube you see on TV all the time) and hooked up to an oxygen tank...smoking. I could not believe my eyes. First of all, the fact that he needs oxygen means he can't breathe. Secondly, oxygen is flammable. I spent the rest of the afternoon ventilating.

For all you Grey's Anatomy fans, I'm working at a prettier hospital than Seattle Grace.


The Royal Alexandra Hospital. A teaching hospital with 678 beds and the region's largest medical and surgical health facility, performing over 28 000 surgical procedures anually and employing over 4 800 staff.

Houses an indoor garden with sunroof right beside the nursing wards so that patients' rooms (to the right) overlook greenery and the beautiful architecture.

From the 2nd floor looking down the center space to the lobby area and food court in the basement. I was tempted to drop something from the 6th floor just to see it splatter...kidding.

Walking down the surgical wing, all the stretchers neatly lined up on the side with the indoor garden to the right. First door on the left is the on-call room. Comfy couches, big screen plasma TV, fridge...
Eat that Meredith Grey.

 
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